Ah, alas. I am finally taking a moment to look back and reflect on this past year and the goals that I had set for myself and preparing for 2015 (*Fair warning – this is a long one!). If you read my last post, you understand why it’s taking me until nearly one full week into January to even remotely start thinking about these things. The end of the year got crazy, and we’re preparing to move into our new house, but I needed a minute to think. I’m so ready to get settled into this new year and start to focus on what’s ahead.
Each year, I have a tendency to end the year by sharing some sort of a post about how this was ‘the best year yet,’ etc. etc. 2014, for the first time ever, was not my favorite year yet. A lot of good happened, don’t get me wrong, but some of the good was paired with some not-so-good, eye-opening things too. Overall, it just wasn’t necessarily my favorite year ever. But, I will say this: Above all else, I learned a lot in 2014. I learned a lot about life and about the fact that it becomes very real as we grow older. Life isn’t all fantasy anymore. Real life things happen, and even to some of the best of people. Second, I learned a lot about who my true friends are and who really means the most. I’ve learned that I don’t always have to be the only one giving 100%+ effort in a relationship. I have kept and gained friends that will do the same, and that’s truly amazing. I’m really grateful for that. I’ve learned that it really is alright to weed certain people out of your life if they supply you with nothing other than negative energy. I’m really glad I’m finally acting on this. Lastly, I’ve learned how great my faith is in God. I’ve known this, but my faith has really grown, and continues to do so.
As I begin to make my list of goals for 2015, I wanted to look back on some of last year’s goals to see how I’ve done, and to see how I can relate. When I look at the goals I had set for myself last year, I realize that what I really want is to continue most of these into this year too:
Back to blogging (personally) – I’ve had so many different ‘blogs’ in many forms for what seems like years now. I absolutely love to write. When I first really started to enter the blog world (post xanga/myspace days of course), I tried blogging in many different forms. I tried having scheduled posts for specific days of the week (Wedding Wednesdays, Favorite Fridays, and so on…), I tried sharing recipes and I don’t even like to cook and I had my fair share of product reviews. I’ve also done quite a bit of blogging on a professional level for my business and others too. I’ve enjoyed it all, but I’m ready to go back to writing for myself. On my own time, when I want, about what I want to write about. Whatever is on my heart and on my mind. I was so consumed in school, work and my business last year, but over the summer when I had a little bit of ‘free time,’ I finally got back around to blogging for myself again. I still haven’t gotten to do nearly as much as I’d like, but that’s definitely one of my goals for this year. I don’t want the blog to have a theme, I don’t want to review products, I don’t want to blog about certain things only on certain days, I just want to write. So, that I will do. I’m not sure who I’m even writing for most days, if for anyone other than myself, but this is the place where I will continue to do just that. The blog still has some cleaning up and freshening up to be done, but nonetheless, it’s a place to write, and another place I can share my thoughts.
Learn new bible verses – Like I mentioned above, I’ve come to know my faith more than I feel like I ever have before, and I really want to continue to do so. I read devotions and verses daily. I really want to know the Bible because I feel like I don’t know it nearly as much as I could or should. I love learning new verses. I want to continue with this this year as well. My mom got me another new devotion book for Christmas that I’ve also started reading each day.
More time on my yoga mat – With the craziness of my aforementioned schedule, exercise is something that always tends to lie low on the totem pole, and I know I’m not the only one who feels this way. I’ve always considered myself to be a healthy, active individual though, and exercise is something that has always been important to me, not necessarily to lose weight and to be fit, but for overall health. If you know me, you know that I’ve dealt with annoying stomach problems all my life, and remaining active and eating healthy and clean has changed this for me immensely. Yogahour is a form of exercise I really enjoy, and if nothing else, I made a commitment to myself that I would allow myself one hour a week at the very least to practice. Since May (my first break from grad school last year), I have not missed this once. It may not be much, but to me, it’s certainly something. I want it to be so much more, but for today, it’ll do. I wish to keep with the same until this May (graduation!!!), and after that, I plan to revise my exercise plan to include much, much more (both time on the mat and off).
Quit rushing – With my constant ‘have to be here, there and everywhere’ mentality, my schedule has left little room for breathing, and I’m constantly rushing to get from one place to the next, oftentimes not arriving as punctual as I like to be (and for an anxiety-ridden, time-sensitive individual such as myself, this is stressful!). One of my goals last year was to quit rushing so dang much. I go back and forth on this. I’m getting better at listening to my body and knowing when it’s time to slow down. I need to take care of myself and focus on those that I’m affecting around me too. This is something that I know I must continue to work on this year too.
Be present – This goes along with the above. My mind is constantly wandering, focusing on whatever else I think I need to be focusing on. I’m trying to remind myself the importance of being present and in the moment. Life is too dang short not to be.
Know that it’s alright to say ‘no’ – I am a people-pleaser. I will thank my sales management class last spring for helping me to make this a known reality and allowing me to actually admit this to myself and to others (who would have thought that a graduate level sales and marketing class would become more of a psychological, therapy session each week?!). I will say that this year, I have finally learned to start saying ‘no’ to things, and I’m really proud of myself for taking this step. This is something that I’ve never been able to do without having some sort of a very legitimate excuse, followed by days of anxiety to boot. I’m still not awesome at it yet, but I am finally getting better at this and already feeling so excited for the places that saying ‘no’ is leading me. It almost sounds like an oxymoron of sorts, but it’s true. I’ve also been reading Lysa TerKeurst’s ‘The Best Yes’ which is very helpful and inspiring as well.
Unplug – Social media has literally become an addiction to some, myself included, and I have a love/hate relationship with this fact. I’ve been a big advocate of social media since the beginning, with it being such a big part of my life both personally and professionally and studying the awesome outcome it can have in so many ways in terms of marketing. However, I’ve unfortunately seen some of the not-so-awesome effects that it can have on individuals too. Not just businesses and bad reviews, but individuals. We’re constantly feeling the need to compare ourselves to everyone’s highlight reels and such, and even though I too love to share the amazing things in my life, I sometimes feel overwhelmed by the fact that we are all constantly trying to overpower the other and only doing certain things or spending time with certain people just to share it on social media for others to see. I think that takes things to an entirely different level. As much as I love so much of social media and the positive power that it can have, I have worked and will continue to work on unplugging more often and going back to being present, and truly living in the moment. I love to document, I love to write and I love to share. That’s just my nature, and it always has been. I just want to make sure I’m doing so intentionally and that I’m not getting too caught up in the lives of others as opposed to living my own life too.
Listen to my heart – Don’t always worry about what others have to say and about what others are doing; It’s about what’s right for me and us at this point in time. This is huge. I feel like each off these goes hand-in-hand and right along with one another. Our life is about us and about serving God and living the life that he has set out for us. Just because other people are at certain peaks in their careers or because they already have children and we do not doesn’t mean that we have to be there too. We’re going at the pace that fits us and our lifestyle, and we’re honestly just working to go along with whatever plan God truly does have set out for us. I feel pressured, a lot, to already have reached certain milestones in life, but for today, what we have is enough and is physically what we are able to have and to handle.
Those are some of last year’s goals that I intend to continue to expand on this year too. In addition to all of these things, I also want to include:
Be less ‘busy’ – Upon college graduation, it seemed if you weren’t constantly sharing how ‘busy’ you were, ie. out with friends, working, always working, etc. you weren’t doing it right. I’ll be the first to admit, that I am almost always seemingly busy, but I’m working on this one. Busy actually isn’t that cool, but being productive is. Rest is also cool. Taking some time to just sit at a coffee shop and think, read a book (my favorite) or even spend an afternoon on the couch watching Netflix. I rarely do these things and sometimes feel guilty when I do, but the thing is, these things are actually good for you. I’m learning this.
Narrow my focus – I tend to do one thousand and one things and go a mile a minute. I’m learning to tame that a bit too. I’ve finally set aside some extracurriculars and said no to some additional freelance side jobs and a few other things as I’m finding that I am finally very ready to really narrow my focus. I like to give 100% to things, and that’s best when you can focus on just a few things, not one thousand and one of them. Like I mentioned, I graduate from grad school in May (can you tell I’m excited?!), and I feel that this year will bring some opportunities that will make this whole narrow focus thing a reailty. That is my hope, anyway. I’m excited for what this looks like (and don’t quite know what I’ll actually do with myself once I’m finally there…be less busy, I suppose 😉 ).
Remember what and who is most important – Lastly, I need to remember the ones that are always there for me (my husband especially) and the things that are truly important in life. Sometimes those things get pushed aside, and they shouldn’t. I need to acknowledge this more.
I don’t know what exactly this year holds, but I like to think that I may at least have some sort of an idea of the positive changes that lie ahead. Regardless, we’ll be in our new home in less than a week (bittersweet, but still very exciting), and I think this will be a good, fresh new start for the new year and my little family that is just enough for today. Graduation is ahead, and some other exciting weddings and events also await. Aside from all of that, I’m excited to see whatever else 2015 may hold for us.
Cheers to the New Year!